Less than a week ago, I went to the hospital thinking I was going to deliver my little Sidney. Instead, the doctors could not find a heartbeat and told me he had “passed.” I am in shock and denial, and intense pain. I don’t know what to do with myself and am hoping that blogging or writing will help me, or at least in time, let me see that I am in fact surviving. I don’t know how to share a blog, so I am not sure that this will be read or beneficial to others.
This poem best captures some of what we experienced: http://stillbirthday.com/2012/08/31/in-twenty-minutes/